I Worried
I worried a lot. Will the garden grow, will the rivers
flow in the right direction, will the earth turn
as it was taught, and if not, how shall
I correct it?
Was I right, was I wrong, will I be forgiven,
can I do better?
Will I ever be able to sing, even the sparrows
can do it and I am, well,
hopeless.
Is my eyesight fading or am I just imagining it,
am I going to get rheumatism,
lockjaw, dementia?
Finally I saw that worrying had come to nothing.
And gave it up. And took my old body
and went out into the morning,
and sang.
—Mary Oliver
I love Mary Oliver, as regular readers know, but either hadn’t read this poem or had forgotten about it, until my friend Louise shared it on Instagram.
There is so much to worry over in the world – the second stanza especially hits me right in the heart, these days. But there are also so many reasons to sing.
April is National Poetry Month, and I am sharing poetry here on Fridays this month, as I do every year.
This is beautiful. And so applicable to my life. Thank you.
A few days ago I finished Mary Oliver’s collection “Why I Wake Early,” and loved it! Thank you for sharing this heartening gem of hers!
Oh, that second stanza–it embodies the merry-go-round that my brain turns into sometimes.
Yes, mine too.
What a wonderful poem : Really, she knows how to pull all your feelings right from your heart and lay them out so succinctly!